The Question You're Running From

Somewhere in the tiredness you have been managing is a sentence that has not yet been spoken. I cannot tell you what it says. Only you know that.

What I can tell you is that the fatigue of carrying an unspoken thing is different from the fatigue of ordinary overwork. Ordinary fatigue responds to rest. This one does not, because you are not tired from doing too much. You are tired from holding a question at arm's length.

I sat in my own driveway for seventeen minutes once, unable to go inside, because going inside would have required me to be in contact with a question I was not ready to ask.

This week, I want you to write the question down. One sentence. You do not have to answer it. You do not have to share it. Just get it outside of your body long enough to see its shape.

The body has been carrying it for you. You can carry it yourself for a while. It is lighter than you think. The carrying was the heaviest part.

— Job